Memories consume like opening the wounds
回憶，啃噬著我，就像個不會痊癒的傷口
I'm picking me apart again
我又揭開自己的瘡疤了
You all assume
你可能會以為
I'm safe here in my room
我在房間會很安全
Unless I try to start again
除非我想再重新自殺一次

I don't want to be the one the battles always choose
我不想被逼著戰鬥
'cause inside I realize that I'm the one confused
因為我知道，我的內心很困惑

I don't know what's worth fighting for
我不知道，為什麼我要戰？
Or why I have to scream
還有……我為什麼會尖叫？
I don't know why I instigate
我為什麼要大開殺戒？
And say what I don't mean
然後再說，我是無心的…

I don't know how I got this way
我不知道，這一切是怎麼開始的？
I know it's not alright
我知道，這應該不太好…
So I'm breaking the habit
所以，我只想打破這個迴圈

I'm breaking the habit tonight
今晚，我就要了結它

Clutching my cure
緊抓著我的十字架
I tightly lock the door
我鎖上門
I try to catch my breath again
希望能夠重新感受自己的呼吸，知道我仍是有靈魂的
I hurt much more than any time before
但是，我感到前所未有的痛苦
I have no options left again
原來，我沒有選擇了
I don't want to be the one the battles always choose
我不想再捲入任何戰鬥中
'cause inside I realize that I'm the one confused
因為我覺得人生，只是一場莫名其妙

I don't know what's worth fighting for
我不知道為何而戰
Or why I have to scream
我為何要怒吼？
I don't know why I instigate
我為何會動手？
And say what I don't mean
然後再說，抱歉，其實我不想傷害你
I don't know how I got this way
我不知道我是如何變成這樣的
I'll never be alright
我永遠不會好
So I'm breaking the habit
所以今晚我就要打破這個無限迴圈

I'm breaking the habit tonight
今晚我就要破除這個詛咒

I'll paint it on the walls
我在牆上畫著，不知所以然
'cause I'm the one at fault
因為錯的永遠是我
And this is how it ends
這就是結局

致永遠的查斯特·班寧頓